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"Imala sam samo 31 kilogram, a onda sam otkrila nešto što mi je spasilo život"

M.Ra
16:22, 29. listopada 2018.
"Imala sam samo 31 kilogram, a onda sam otkrila nešto što mi je spasilo život"
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LYDIA Davies prije osam godina je postala veganka, a njezin način prehrane uskoro je postao poremećaj. Djevojka je oboljela od anoreksije i bulimije, a problem je eskalirao kada je počela povraćati nakon tanjura juhe i salate. Lydia je imala strah od debljanja koji joj je uništio i život i zdravlje. U jednom periodu je jela samo šparoge te pala na 31 kilogram.

Njezina obitelj i prijatelji bili su jako zabrinuti za njezin život, a onda je Lydia otkrila jogu i život joj se posve promijenio, piše Daily Mail.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

1.6 million people are affected by eating disorders in the UK alone; less than 50% affected recover fully, a third partially recover and 20% remain chronically ill. Although I post these transformation photos, I want to highlight that you cannot always or even usually see an eating disorder. Bulimia, binge purge subtype, BED and EDNOS are all just as serious as Anorexia Nervosa but without always having the a-typical physical symptoms that one associates with ED’s. Although the above is one of my darkest times, when I was on the verge of being sectioned under the mental health act; the time between the two pictures where my weight would fluctuate depending on my struggles with the illness and other addictions was probably more intensely painful mentally. It was years of pure chaos for both me and my family. The times where I would raid a friends entire kitchen, eating thousands of calories in an alcohol infused binge and then drive home wasted because I had no choice but to purge, flipping my car on the way and getting arrested. The time where I would eat cereal I’d sprayed in detox earlier from the bin and then take an overdose because I felt so ashamed. The time where I drank cleaning product because I could deal with the negative thought about what I had eaten and I so desperately wanted my stomach pumped. The nights I spent sleeping on my parents floor at 20+ years of age because I was a danger to myself. All of those times people were telling me how well I looked. I will never be embarrassed of these times as I’m not sure how but I made it through them and that made me, me. I’m happy. I’m positive. I’ve learned to love myself exactly as I am this year and it’s the greatest revelation of how I can live happily there ever was. I want to share that because at a time I thought it wasn’t possible, especially due to the lack of initial help I received. But it IS possible. ED’s are not glamorous, they are life threatening disorders which create serious trauma for the sufferer and those around them. Keep fighting if you are struggling, there is always light, there is a place for you in the world, and you deserve everything, exactly as you are. Stay strong ❤️

Objavu dijeli Lydia Davies (@lydiabellsprout)

"Prošle sam se godine počela baviti jogom i napokon prihvatila sebe onakvom kakva jesam. Na Instagramu sam vidjela kako netko radi stojeve na rukama i pomislila sam da bih i ja mogla pokušati. To mi je puno pomoglo jer me držalo fokusiranom i koncentriranom", kazala je.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Self-hate, pain, punishment, misery —-> Self-acceptance, strength, freedom, joy. In the first picture I’d lost almost everything, including my mind. I was taken away from uni and confined to my parents house to recover from a mental health illness that crept up on me from what seemed like nowhere. My days were spent lying on the sofa as I was too weak to do anything. I only left the house to be driven to appointments for blood tests, ecg’s and therapy. Even though I was told that I was going to die, the illness, the addiction that I had was so strong that I was unable to change or do anything about it. Nothing else was relevant not important. On the verge of being sectioned, I began binging, which quickly became bulimia and alcoholism. My days became a living nightmare, stealing coppers, buying alcohol, tearing apart the kitchen, binging and then making myself vomit repeatedly throughout the day until I was suicidal with feelings of shame and guilt. My family home became a living hell, my parents and siblings terrified. I hated myself and believed that I did not deserve to live. Hospitalisation after suicide attempts. Life was really fucking dark. I am grateful every day that that is no longer my life and I am amazed that I climbed out of what I almost accepted was my destiny. I was in so deep, that I thought escaping that darkness was impossible. But here I am now, alive to tell the story, to share the journey, to let you know that the impossible is possible, recovery is possible. When life is painful and life is rough, search for that tiny bit of light, because it is always there somewhere. Remember that all is not lost, that you are enough, that you are worthy and that you are fucking strong, stronger than you realise. Never give up fighting, keep getting back up, try everything, as many times as it takes until you find your way out of that painful darkness, because life has so much more to offer you than what your eating disorder does. It won’t be easy, but it does get easier and when you look back and see how far you have come you will be proud and you will be so grateful for your life and for you lessons 💞 sending love.

Objavu dijeli Lydia Davies (@lydiabellsprout)

Lydia se ne srami govoriti o svom problemu, a na svom Instagramu želi podići svijest o mentalnim bolestima koje je prošla. Danas je sretna, zdrava i prihvaća svoje tijelo onako kakvo jest.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

‘This was the first and not the last time that I heard these terrifying words “you are going to die”. They did hit a nerve within me, but at the same time, I wasn’t entirely sure that I even cared anymore. Maybe I wanted to die. I definitely wanted everyone to leave me alone and let me get on with my life. I staggered around the house and crawled up the stairs like a spider. My pyjamas hung off my jutting hip and shoulder bones as I scuttled into the kitchen to fill my hot water bottle for the millionth time. I could see my housemates staring at what was left of my emaciated body, but I was convinced I was finally starting to look alright and told myself perhaps they were envious of my self control. They would all be sitting around the kitchen table laughing, joking, eating and drinking when I would breeze in and slice the atmosphere with my sharp bones. The room would always fall silent, as if a ghost has entered and they could feel its presence. I was becoming more and more absorbed in my illness. I wasn’t sure who I was anymore and found it difficult to find things to talk about. I was unsure what was real and what was a dream. I questioned everything and understood nothing. I had retreated so far into myself that by this point, I could barely hold a conversation. I was dead behind the eyes, no longer Lydia’ There was a time that I accepted I was going to die. Now I am grateful every day that I never gave up. Keep fighting. You may not see it now, but there is a crazy life full amazing experiences outside your eating disorder. It is waiting for you. Never give up. (Ps I am happy and loving life in the second photo, I was just sad to be leaving my wonderful flat lol) Extract from Raw ^ available on Amazon - link in bio

Objavu dijeli Lydia Davies (@lydiabellsprout)

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